Stacey Solomon feels 'tremendous guilt' over postnatal depression

Julia Hunt
·Contributor
·2 min read
Stacey Solomon (PA)
Stacey Solomon (PA)

Stacey Solomon has told how she feels “tremendous guilt” that postnatal depression initially affected the way she felt about her first son.

The Loose Women star welcomed Zachary with a former partner when she was just 18.

Speaking on Bryony Gordon’s Mad World podcast, she said her struggle with postnatal depression meant she “just didn’t feel it” at the time.

“I don’t look back and regret anything because what’s the point in that, it won't get me anywhere,” said the TV star, 31.

Read more: Stacey Solomon forgets to pick up kids after thinking they were still home-schooling

“But I definitely look forward and have moments now with Zacky where I think, ‘Oh I wish I loved you from the very minute.’ 

"Not that I didn’t, I’m sure I did, but I just didn’t feel it and I didn’t get it.”

This content is not available due to your privacy preferences.
Update your settings here to see it.

“It brings me tremendous guilt, especially when I love my other children,” Solomon went on. “When they’re born and I love them and I’m like, ‘This is amazing’, I immediately feel like, ‘Wow I was terrible when I had Zach.’

“But it is what it is, I can’t change it. It was just the way that I felt.”

Solomon is also mum to eight-year-old Leighton from a previous relationship, and she and her fiance Joe Swash welcomed son Rex together in May 2019.

Stacey Solomon and Joe Swash attending the Brit Awards at the O2 Arena, London.
Stacey Solomon and Joe Swash attending the Brit Awards at the O2 Arena, London.

The star said what she went through when she had Zachary helped prepare her when she had her other two children, as she knew the feelings would pass.

“When I was in it with Zach, I genuinely thought, I am never going to be happy again and I am never going love my child,” she said.

“It just made me feel horrendous.

This content is not available due to your privacy preferences.
Update your settings here to see it.

“When I had Rex a couple of years ago I got exactly the same feelings, just the gut wrenching, just unhappy, I’d just feel deeply unhappy for no reason. 

Read more: Stacey Solomon 'counting leg hairs' to help calm anxiety

"I’m so happy but just deeply unhappy and uncontrollably sobbing all the time, but at least I knew whilst I was going through that little stage that I would come out of it.”

According to the NHS, postnatal depression is a type of depression that many parents experience after having a baby.

The site said: "It's a common problem, affecting more than 1 in every 10 women within a year of giving birth. It can also affect fathers and partners."

Watch: Stacey Solomon and Joe Swash want to marry in their new back garden